C. K. Williams
Alzheimer's: The Wife
for Renee Mauger
She answers the bothersome telephone, takes the message, forgets the
message, forgets who called.
One of their daughters, her husband guesses: the one with the dogs,
the babies, the boy Jed?
Yes, perhaps, but how tell which, how tell anything when all the name
tags have been lost or switched,
when all the lonely flowers of sense and memory bloom and die now in
adjacent bites of time?
Sometimes her own face will suddenly appear with terrifying inappropriateness
before her in a mirror.
She knows that if she's patient, its gaze will break, demurely, decorously,
like a well-taught child's,
it will turn from her as though it were embarrassed by the secrets
of this awful hide-and-seek.
If she forgets, though, and glances back again, it will still be in
there, furtively watching, crying.
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